Monday, March 23, 2009
a tissue a day.

work on friday was...

errr.....
lets jus say it wasnt what I was expecting.


it was 'happy hour' so basically work ended....
early.

apparently I was a target of everyone's fun.
I got made fun of.
Like badly.
Ok maybe not badly.
Coz i laughed at it too.


And i joined in making fun of myself.

walao like everyone shd reali get use to my HANDPHONE POUCH.
NOT PURSE.
Yeah i know,
Gay-ish.
WATEVER LAHHH.

"Its Coming! Its Coming!"
Lol that was classic man.


Sat was Weekendtrip Noise edition.
next post, next post.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:15 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009
a day of rampage, a day of beginnings

work was at jurong regional library today.
kinda hectic.
BUT!

was able to meet cute girllllssss.
woohoo.

ohmygod when she smilesss.........
my legs go jelly.
Too bad that was the end of that.

argh.


and,
HEY!
I got to go to live and loaded!

Faris from Cardinal Avenue gave me tix!
awesome lah!

Cardinal Avenue is seriously great.
Guess im jus waiting to see myself on tv.
Thursday!

♥/LiterallyTom/12:55 AM

Monday, March 16, 2009
The last thing the Earth needs.

Today i bid farewell to them.
Forever.
I feel so used and taken advantaged of.
its reali not the first time.
I guess they reali barbequed my last nerve

And for the first time im reali admitting,
Im crying as I type this post.
Not because I reali wanna show that Im sad.
But sincerity.
Coz I mean watever I say.


Im not noble.
I jus care too much.


I've been at my lowest point in life for days
despite all the ongoing smiles.
I jus feel that despair shdnt be shared.

so,
What happen to the promise for the great 2009?
What happen to the joy of 2009?
Ushering the year with new nice friends, starting everything with a blast.

Doesnt it counts for anything?

oh wait.
It does.

A life lost is a life gained.


But what difference does it make with
a life gained, is a life lost?


if thats the cycle of life,
then I jus wanna isolate myself.
coz I tremble at the thought of losing sumone else.
Someone special.


Someone like you.

You who I've given so much thought of,
but never the slightest courage to face.



so is it true then,
that a beautiful day brings about reluctant change?


is life that shallow?


I've lost too many people.
And I cant stop thinking about wat the future holds
despite the secrets that I know.

I've sacrificed enough.
Now please let me sleep peacefully.


I guess 'thanks' was the only word i needed to hear.

♥/LiterallyTom/8:30 PM

Sunday, March 15, 2009
sigh sigh sigh.

hah.......
well my emo days are now over.
and how was I to dictate that?
its cuz i jus cut my hair.
short.
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.


work.


yes,
the first 'SHIT!!!' of work.
i reali feel freakin weird without hair covering part of my face now.
damn. i jus feel uneasy.
SO EXPOSED!


damn i wonder if its gonna gow back.
fast.
i want my hair back!





so anw,
I CANT GET ENOUGH OF YOONA.
hahhahahaha.
oh ya, i forgot to mention in the last post that,
Yoona's birthday is


30 may 1990.




LIKE WTHHHHHHHHHHH.
SHE IS EXACTLY 1 YEAR OLDER!
we share the same birthday!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAY!
hahahha.
if oni she was 1991 or smth.
I'd fly over to korea rite now and take her to Singapore.
lol.



damn.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:12 PM

Saturday, March 14, 2009
haiiiizzzzz.

Im supposed to be freakin freakin freakin freakin freakin angry
coz seriously i've been used.

today is reali the climax of how things have reali gone
ultra bad.

I curse them for being so irresponsible and injustice and unfair and one-sided.
seriously Im washing my hands off them.
assholes.

BUT


I immediately felt better aftr watching my new favourite video


(since yesterday. lol)













OMG WTF
how can you resist the beauty of the world!
(represented by the awesomely prettttyful adorableful dancing girls. ful)






arghhh


soooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeee lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish i can have them.
all of them.


I'll mount their faces on the wall.

YOONA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

walao I'd cut off all my fingers for her.
actuali not reali.
I'd tape all my fingers together for a week for her.
=D

♥/LiterallyTom/8:32 PM

Thursday, March 12, 2009
What will it take to let it go?

Taken granted of again.
its like Im just digging my own grave aftr every successful esccape.
I may be all smiles and wacky around the clock.
But seriously, its all jus a healing scar from
digging out from my own grim hole.



You dun know me.
YOU DO NOT KNOW ME AT ALL.



When can I ever see myself in those shoes?
Im doing fine but yet
im lost.
So lost in my own deeds.
Deeds that help others but drenched in their own
selfish acts.



Im not looking at where Im standing anymore.
I'm tired.
I am so freakin tired of it.




absorbed in my own reflections.
But who is listening?



I jus hope that Im not going down that road again.




Dun let me disappear from my own slumber.
I am not going down that road again.
Not after what I've strive to save myself from.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:45 AM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I am really feeling it

Work doesnt feel liike a chore anymore.
And thats reali one cool shit.
except when I get too sleepy.



well its still quite slack


but atleast its getting better!
Seriously, I think I get along better with ppl at work
than my own classmates.





coz they speak my language.
(they speak good english =))))








and besides,
there are quite a number of decent-looking girls to look at.
by decent-looking, I mean either cute, or preeeeeettttttayyyy
not to mention the volunteer girls at the learning centre as 'tour guides'
and not forgetting....
CRESCENT GIRLS jus a stone throw away.





more girllllls to look at.


hahahhaaahah.
okok im sick somewhere somehow.











Work is half-heaven.
everyday eat good food during lunch somemore.
wakao.
I never thought attachment was this....... good/fun?
and slacky.








I am, AWESOME.





work aside,
I witnessed a heated argument between a young lady and an old man.
Apparently, the old man's idea of fitting into the train is to push people around.
Hard.


and the young lady was probabli pushing the man back.
Hard.



and then the man starts to shout.
but the lady didnt. she jus argued blah blah blah.
then the man shout shout shout.
I felt like shutting him up with my fist.








ooops


so bad.
Show him respect Tom. He's old.








ok!



























Why?


Because I am Awesome.
hah!

♥/LiterallyTom/12:16 AM

Sunday, March 8, 2009
Seal your lips with the cold switch of a secret

Damn too much malay jiwang songs were absorbed today.
I need to clense my ears.
shit shit shit shit.


I feel damn desperate today.
crap lahh



I kept laughing at my cousin's friends jus now.
coz apparently they were "shufflin" of some sort.
Jumpstyle or wat shit they call it.

I laughing at super funny jumping kids
while super noisy techno songs
damage the oh so delicate ears.


well actuali I rather listen to techno and trance
than heavy/black/thrash/shit/crap/dung metal anw.
noisy music.


I love eye-ing girls.
they'll always give the "what-the-hell-are-you-looking-at-punk" look.

i guess i dun look decent.
hahahahahahhha.
If you know me well,
then you might say im decent
while others will say im a maniac.


decent or maniac?


ok I'll stick to maniac.
coz it fits a guy with
long fringe that covers one eye (emo hero)
and short bangs at the back.
in summary, a guy with female hairstyle.
yes, maniac is good enough.


anw,
I've been sleeping late watching youtube vids
about Islam and Chirstian.
Been trying to compare.
apparently kids love to argue in the internet.

and i always read comments coz its fun.
on every video, theres always a hater.
why.
i dun get why these people would waste time arguing.


i guess its for people like me to read.
and find it amusing.


i shd be getting ready for bed coz tmr's gonna be a long work day.
HAIZ.
I was reali looking forward to work.
that was until I knew wat work actuali felt like.

its quite boring at times.
Though lucky for us (me and the other interns)
theres ALOT of very very awesomely (i've been using this word for days) good people.



Im reali contemplating on another Ex6E reunion.
I wonder how interested the people will be.
Arghhh.


shameless promotion:

VISIT!!
www.myspace.com/iamoranger

go visit.
but if ur ears bleed aftr listening, pls dun blame me. =D
and I would reali appreciate anyone who listens.
even if you think its stupid.
yay.


my gosh my blog is getting random
with evry posts.



argh.



nites ppl.
see you in my dreams.
(serious I've probabli seen everyone i know in my dreams. and im not kidding)

♥/LiterallyTom/10:28 PM

Saturday, March 7, 2009
snap snap, rawr rawrrrr hor hor.

hurray
I never felt so happy that its the weekends.
i guess working does sucks.
since im reali looking forward to resting.

anwwww.
If u have the time, check my solo project!
www.myspace.com/iamoranger
I just uploaded a trackkk.
makes it 2 songs in the playlist now!


yay.
Its called Secret Manuel.
"Manuel" as in french version of "Manual"
hurrayay.


Its emo + acoustic + electronica.
Try listening eh???


but if ur ear bleeds aftr listening,
wellllll......
thats jus too bad.
im sorry,
thats what you get if you change a screamer into a clean vocal singer.
HAH.
actuali its partly clean vocals.
jus go and listen ok??


great.



I've been giving thoughts about Poly lately.
And I've actuali come to a abrupt conclusion that
1 year of poly have gone,
but it hasnt brought much different to whatever it is that is essential to life.
atleast to me it hasnt.
Im not sure whether its too early to be thinking about that.
but heck,

poly hasnt teach me to be what I wanted.

lets jus forget for one second that life is all about chasing dreams, having the right career, earn big bucks.
Coz ultimately, thats what the final result wants rite?
so if these things are shifted, what are we, as success driven creatures,
looking for?
whatever it is, I guess we'll only know when we get there.



I think im too isolated.
Its reali bad that I've been dreaming that I'm in love with a super cute cat.
or kitten.

yes, i think dreaming about being in love with a cat is somehow unhealthy.
and I think I even cried in my sleep.
I dunno why.
I think something happened to the cat.
anw, the cat couldnt talk.

and I was hugging the cat. like tight.

ok wth.
why.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:35 PM

Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Lets Take a Second.

Its not fair when your smell lingers around
Its not fair when they look like you
Its not fair when my remains remind of your old self
Its not fair when your melodies slowly kills me inside
Its not fair when your memories are my enemies
Its not fair when you're not the losing end
Its not fair when you're the product of intelligence
Its not fair when life's at your side
Its not fair when they could comply to your needs
Its not fair when you're not the one trying
Its not fair when you're not the one who's lost
Its not fair when you're not the one thinking
Its not fair when the room's not closing in on you
Its not fair when you're not the one hearing the voices
Its not fair when you're not the one staring at the tainted walls
Its not fair when you're not the one falling when you've gained ground
Its not fair when you're not crawling anymore
Its not fair when I'd do anything for just one word
Its not fair when you're not the one failing
Its not fair when even your words could now speak louder than your actions
Its not fair when you're not the one faking the smile
Its not fair when you're not the one being pushed around
Its not fair when you're not the one grabbing your throat
Its not fair when you're the silhouette




Why must you be in the silhouette?








People aren't meant to be by themselves.
That's why if you actually find someone you care about,
it's important to let go of the little things,
even if you can't let go all the way.
Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone,


no matter how many people are around.



so look at what you've done.
Lets just hope you're happy now.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:24 PM

Monday, March 2, 2009

Im gonna skip yesterday's happenings (thambi-k-seaow!!!!)
I'll blog bout that next timeeeeee.
So letsssss zoom in to today.

Its reali jus the first day of attachment @ Youth Olympics Games
and im damnnnn exhausted.
I AM SO SLEEPY.
My eyes are freakin red alll over.

AND YET.



I still need to read a super ultra super ultra thick manual about Torch Relay.

omg I reali need to sleeep.
SLEEP
SLEEP.


ANW.
Yes, its my first day.
and guess wat?


I think, possibly the whole organisation knows me lahhhhh.
Yay im popular.

Random people come to me saying
"Ur Tormimi rite?"



No, it doesnt stop there.



"with the long 'i's at the back rite?"



i swear, i think nearly everyone knows me cuz of my name.
WTFH.

even the director of my division came out of his office and asked.
"Who's the one with the long 'i's ar?"
awesome man, im a legend.




and then when i was about to get out of the place with Shumin,
theres this 2 guys from another division asked.

"You're Tormimi rite? Long 'i's? "


Super.


human resource. woohoo.
shit my eyes are red and swollen.
I need to go sleep now.

Its ADD tmr.
Dun wanna let anyone down.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:53 PM