Monday, August 31, 2009
taktarataktaktakdishdishdishdishboomtakboomboom

Hello Lacedaemons~

ANBERLIN was awesome.
Somehow I predicted the whole song list
they gonna play.
awesome.

Adelaide, Godspeed, Breaking, Feel Good Drag, The Resistance! (which they started off with. crazy shit.) Paperthin Hymn and I think 2 others songs which I've heard before.

and I freakin just started listening to them.

damn if oni i was a fan.
Shit why cant bands I love come to Singapore.
With the exception of RJA.
WHich I've come to hate aftr releasing their lame ass new album.
Don't you Fake It was the shit.


all three baybeats spent with norman, fabian, sam, jimmy, twin.
with joanne and hanaffe for 2 days, cheryl for the last day,
nigel, mervyn randomly for 3 days, and super loooots of random friends like twins and the jamming ppl.


anw, the mosh at anberlin jus consists of impatient, unreasonable and immature youths.

rampage had the best crowd. youths who cared and gave a damn about others.

but the people at baybeats are jus damn immature.
complaining about shit.
ur in the freakin mosh man.
YOU GOTTA BE READY FOR SHIT THAT HAPPENS.
there was this guy with small balls.
who fought with a girl.
call himself a guy. wat a loser.

I wish the crowd could be more like the crowd from rampage.
so friendly.
well thats when i met awesome people like the 'mosh crew'
john, norman, jimmy, visa, sherwin, rus.
jean, may, ginagermain.
argh.
people need to chill more.

youths are so impatient and easily flustered.

ok fine, Im one too.
but hey, im patient enough to think logically in the moshpit.
others jus wanna fist in.
idiots.
jus makes me angry thinking about it.
ok watever.



wat are u thinking
chill
u dun wan to be one of them

♥/LiterallyTom/1:41 AM

Sunday, August 30, 2009

congrats
you made me jelly without even being physical.
you are awesome.




second day of baybeats.
i think this year was better than the last.

but can never outdo Baybeats 2007

missed Barricade and West Grand Boulevard,
the 2 most bands I wanted to see most.

like shit. argh.

It was flawed element and Meza virs just now.
Along with Love Me Butch. awesome bands.
awesome awesome bands.


SORRY JEAN
i didnt realised u msg.
Shit now have to wait for another donkey years before we meet again.
On a brighter note,
get to see the twins (as in Gina & Germain) again!
and meeting again tmr!


ANBERLIN ANBERLIN ANBERLIN.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:48 AM

Friday, August 28, 2009
so hard.

Who really needs the past

With the allure of something new

So we split apart at last

Went back to places that I knew

Before you

When I count by the resistance

I bend in shapes in ways I never knew

So I'll try to post from my existence

Yeah I'll stop or start my heart if you ask me to

I'll stop my heart and then I'll wait for you

♥/LiterallyTom/5:06 PM

Wednesday, August 26, 2009
crazy perhaps? bameh!

The milo mountain in my house.





♥/LiterallyTom/8:42 PM

Monday, August 24, 2009
in view of our miraculous demise.

our mentality cant uphold such conjuncture.
it rips such nature with a tainted smear.

not to mention all those deep ruptures.

no,
we shall not be perished by merely incendious words.
cantillate your faith.
for you know best of your own abilities.


well, a million smoke and mirrors might justify your act as innocent.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:26 PM

selected action cuts~

Its Mom's Bday today!















































♥/LiterallyTom/12:44 AM

Sunday, August 23, 2009
satisfying?

♥/LiterallyTom/12:25 AM

Saturday, August 22, 2009
Back and forth we always go

Wishing I'd never come across your face
Laying by the memories of things unspoken

How come your dreams are always so bitter?
And who knows
maybe one day
she will know my name





hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~

CCS = Can Continue Sleeping.

Still finding you girls super funny at times.
and weird.
and sometimes......
disgusting.
hahahhahaha.

ok sorry.
but i think y'all expected that.
hahahhaha.


I'd probabli have to wake up at 5+am later on.
oh its 1am now.
Super early breakfast.
coz tmr's the first day of the fasting month.

im not sure if im actuali ready for fasting.
but wth,
im like,
fasting everyday anw.
so no diff.

hah.

maybe pearly can fast to.
lol.
since you dun reali eat much.
or spend half the time in the toilet
lol.


I'm reali waiting for Ok, Roosevelt! to do smth now.
haiz.
its so difficult.

ok so today was spend doing nothing.
and AccountsFinance is on Tues.
shit. Stop procrastinating and do smth.
lol who am I kidding.

Anw, mom advised on something totally random
while we were eating in KFC today.
gahh KFC.


she said:
"Bile din (oh my families members call me din) dah besar nanti
(like im not big enough rite now?),
and din nak cari pasangan,
cari perempuan yang baik tau.
Jangan perempuan yang ade tattoo lah,
minum arak lah, itu lah, ini lah. (which goes on, so on and so forth)"


omg,
I took at least 10mins jus to type all that.
I think thats probabli my first time typing in malay.
and I had a hard time spelling malay words.
which justifies my previous post.
shit.

to translate all that,

she said,
get a nice girl as my life partner (or wife =D) next time.
not a hooligan.

like what?
i reali think thats a topic which is reali the last thing i will think about now.
Unless of coz I get some unfortunate girl pregnant now.
which is unlikely.
I practice sexual abstinence.

hah.
like real.
ok reali i do.

ok i'll edit that.
I practice sexual intercourse abstinence.

ok, I'll end my random digressions.
the point is,
I'll definitely be able to judge
and be ready to choose the best or good (enough)
bride for my 'so-called' wedding.


which im not sure if im looking forward to.

oh and she also said,

"and kalao (is it supposed to be spelt 'kalau'?? im reali unsure)
din dah kahwin nanti, remember din dah tak boleh main-main lagi.
YOU HAVE A FAMILY. kene jage rumahtangga (seriously, the first time I used that word. ever.) baik-baik."

im not gonna translate that anw,
so if you wanna knw,
jus ask me directly yea?
(which of course is hyper redundant, coz no one gives a rat's ass anw)

hmmm
ok i think im jus gonna end it here.
aaahhhh.
ergh I hate endings.
seeya
annyeonggaseyo (or is it annyeonggyeseyo?)
pffft watever.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:54 AM

Thursday, August 20, 2009
wow I love LKY~

I just came home less than 5mins.
Im still in my black skinny jeans and my green tshirt. (a.k.a by Yongmei, the Milo tshirt)
socks still firmly stuck to my heels.
cuffling still unbuttoned.

my com was on.
it was on yahoo's homepageee.
and something (or someone) reali caught my attention.

it was LKY~


on the headlines, it says
"MM Lee: Malays have special status here"


and being a 'faulty' malay that I am,
of course, without a freakin doubt,
I was so darn curious.

I mean,
HOW CAN I NOT?

Im like a dog without a leash!
Im like ink refill without the pen itself!
Im like a skydiver without a parachute, and a faulty reserved parachute!

In short, Im a lost, useless malay, heading towards certain death.

and wow, suddenly I see our beloved MM Lee defending the malays.

ok, cut the crap,
I wasnt overjoyed or wat. serious.
jus hyper curious.


but wat he did reali made me love him!
(although he's super mysterious and all~)
or to me, at least.

Headlines => "MM weighs in on race debate"
Sub head=> "MM Lee Kuan Yew fiercely rebuts an NMP's notion of racial equality in Parliament."


if you wanna read the article, => http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20090819/tap-858-govt-accountable-actions-worked-231650b.html

=D

He said: "We expressly stated in our Constitution, a duty on behalf of the government, not to treat everyone as equal. It’s not reality, it’s not practical. It will lead to grave and irreparable damage if we work on that principle. So, this was an aspiration.


I only understand about 3/4 of that though I think I reali got an idea what he's trying to say.

"Our Constitution spells out the duties of the government to treat minorities and Malays with extra care"
-LKY!


Im like wow.
Isn't that gonna create a heated debate?

But well, if you reali think about it,
HEY HE'S RIGHT!


and I especially like this:
"And I thought to myself, ’perhaps I should bring this House back to earth’, and tell us and remind all what’s our starting point, what is our base and if we don’t recognise where we started from and these are our foundations, we’ll fail."

what he said,
its reali very true.

I mean, from a peanut,
we advanced so much.
ok, me, a super insignificant youth (some might say)
could never have grasp the foundations of our motherland
but yet explicitly trying to arrogantly speak his mind.

well hey,
I'm a Singaporean.
And if I don't take notice or even give a slightest care of what we were made of,
I guess our historical arts can never be forever tattooed under our skins.

so yeah,
I dun reali care if I sound "smartass-ish"
It have to start somewhere eh?

so I guess with the number of foreign people here in Singapore, (like 1 out of 4/5 people apparently,)
I hope they aren't jus here thinking
they can jus sleep anywhere around our possession of the Earth
without knowing (or realising) how far we've come.

OR WHAT EXACTLY SINGAPORE ONCE WAS, AT A POINT OF TIME
(which I meant it to be a long, long, long time ago)
*(when we were just a super small fishing village)
**(when everything was still super peaceful)
***(when my people ruled the land)

lets all listen (or actively listen) to what dearest LKY
said and DO NOT forget wat this country was, originally.

which of coz, relates back to me,
being a culturally & traditionally out-of-sync malay boy.
but I guess being this far from what I truly am creates an invisible barrier.
between myself and what I was (or wat I shd be)
Probabli, I can never revert myself back culturally. (Cross Cultural Studies, oh the irony)


and I'm stuck being someone I shdnt be.


even someone thats not from my people is doing good to us.
so what does that make me?
a hypocrite?
or someone that just wants to breakout and be different?


funny how it all links back to wat Jimmy said before.
People have high uncertainty avoidance (omg, cross cultural studies again)
afraid to be different.
routines, schedules, routines, schedules.
uniqueness is alien.


and an attempt to make a difference negatively affects the environment.
OUR environment.
the environment that laughs 'make a difference' while screaming 'dun make me laugh' at the same time.

so I guess its settled.
I knw myself pretty well now.
Im not the boy who screamed "What am i?!?!" anymore.
(or atleast not so much now)


Im gonna leave it at that,
knowing my love for the country is still unshattered
and my ideals and perception searching for the leakage to solve the cultural faults in myself.
Hoping one day, I will truly understand what I am. (which I just contradicted =D)

♥/LiterallyTom/6:04 PM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009
It was food that killed us eventually.

my weight is gone
nothing left to consume
i rely on my faith to survive
how did this happen?
my lifestocks were supporting me
these rocks and colliding seas
only left to greet my needs
seeds, my growth is vertical
you will see, you will see
bright orange amber
burn this junction now
this rage is left to feed my fire
how sorry is your life now?
well?
now tell me if i belong here.





photoshoot, photoshoot.
pls end fast.


today was an almost a mad rush against time day.
with Daren almost giving up on IT.


like woah.

and I'd say a synonym for IT is Daren.
and a synonym for Dominic is Gay.

hahahahahhahah.



accompanying Grace back to Pasir Ris
meant a 45mins journey of snoooze aftr that.
well it was fun~ i think. Crabby!



kinda weird that I would willingly reached there earlier than I would want to reach school huh?
says alot about what I'm thinking




What have I been thinking anw?

ANWWW,
i realised the class have alot of couples.
I mean, unofficial, unannounced, unwritten but nonetheless super obvious couples.

Like our dear christian couple, and auntie + big brother.
not to mention our official couple pak & sylvia.


i guess its a result of class isolation.


well since we're in the topic on relationship,
it seems like the class have kinda lots of unavailable people.


04's OFFICIAL Non-Single list:
Wenyi
Angela
Theresa (eh wait, ssa is non-single meh? shit i should ask)
Sylvia
Hui Ting
ShiShii
Pak
Louis



ok watever.
shit i reali need to study.

ok lets go slp.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:34 AM

Thursday, August 13, 2009
dark, dark secrets. melodiously.

And I just can't let you go
I can't lose this feeling
These precious moments, we have so few

i remembered your laughter.


the familiar ocean
gave birth to such commotion.
oblivious to my favourite notion.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:53 AM

Saturday, August 8, 2009
oh fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:39 AM

Thursday, August 6, 2009

today was quite fun.
=D

besides the fact that there was presentation anw.
but hey the presentation was quite okk!

did photoshoot for the 3 year events students.
Specifically Skye/Shumin/Fahmi/Kailing class.
I think i can name lots of ppl from that class.


Damn cute lah they.
I think i probabli pissed them off.
hahahahhahaha

Im quite a noob photographer lahh.

but not that super noob lahh


went to meet Jimmy after that.
had a quite a good time sia
went to art friend for awhile.

it was half a mistake, half a good idea to bring jimmy inside artfriend.
He went crazy.

anw the nite ended with smth super random.
here was the scene:

Jimmy kept doing the pulling-self-up-the-ropes dance which was super damn funny.
so we did smth stupid.
when the mrt reached,
I quickly rushed into th mrt and acted like I was pulling jimmy into the train.
ahhhahahahahahhhaha.
and jimmy did the dance thingy.

I swear we looked like super idiots.
hahahahhahahhaaa.


ok watever. bye.










♥/LiterallyTom/1:19 AM

Sunday, August 2, 2009
dreadlocks, man down. man down.

04 finally won the Milo photo contest thingy.
coolllioo
it was a last minute battle between another event class.
we were so focused on tryingg to win that class
we even had super wicked thoughts

of coz, we were nice ppl who played by the rules.
rules of spamming.

thx to everyone who voted and helped spamm~~~~

my com went nuts.
im reali not sure when I can use it again.
damn wat kind of stupid crappy shit computer do ppl sell these days.


ANYWAY


ytd was Reckless Landing's performance at FAD media.
Nic's guitar was a screw up mann.
and truly awesome Tom took truly awesome pictures of such marvelousioso moments.

met with fabian kenneth daniel kenneth aftr that.
SHISHA.
no i dun shisha.
i dun smoke! im a nice little smokeless boy =D

shisha kills.
it kills people fast than I can say "shisha kills"
there, about 1000000000000001 people died from shisha fumes while i was typing that.



HAHAHAHAHHA FABIAN CUT HAIR.
FABIAN'S A SCENE KIDDDD~
SCENE KIDD SCENE KIDD SCENE KIDD!

again,

ANYWAY

Im supposed to be doing my cross cultural report
but im jus slacking off. argh. argh. argh. argh.

I think MTV's HIV commercial is disgusting.


I becoming less patient these days.
i think i shd learn yoga from grace.

LOL.

wth. I think her directions gonna make me more flustered than patient.
right?
"OF COURSE!"

Your delusions showed my eyes blurred visions





♥/LiterallyTom/11:21 PM

Saturday, August 1, 2009

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh




nenek keropok came!!





AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

♥/LiterallyTom/3:39 PM

thinking straight-ish

today marks the sixth day of what I call the worst diarrhoea in my 18 years of existence in this obnoxious world we call Earth.

shit jus when i thought i shd blog,
im feeeeeeeling veeeeeeeeeeeery sleeeeeeeeeeeeepy.
argh.
seeya.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:06 AM