Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I tried.



I tried.


I did.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:56 AM

nocturnal, nocturnal.

after an hour of mindless tossing around in bed,
i finally decided to switch on the light and jus blog.


and i need to reali blog about smth before all the ideas disintegrate and I'll start writing my usual self-doubting poetic-esque mind vomit.


the weeks have been quite tough lately.
and they cycle from physically to emotionally to psychologically draining.
and back again, and again, and again.


and weird thing is I don't know what I'm doing.
its like I'm sleepwalking through the days.
I get drained from going through the same phases of each day,
without even knowing what the day had brought me.
i guess this is where I need to make sense of every moment.



i need to spill my thoughts to stay sane.
and it seems like my blog is staying reliable out of the necessary conditions.


im scared.









stay sane.
stay sane.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:09 AM

i wonder if the thoughts have been in that same constant motion.

or is it indefinitely accelerating in divided velocity?





i hope we never forget.
because what I'm seeing now is....

♥/LiterallyTom/1:14 AM

thanks

for doing it again.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:11 AM

i cant wait anymore.




i cant.










its not like i can pause part of my body.
you're not you anymore.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:08 AM

Far.

just far away.
just really really far away.









i may have blundered
but im sincere.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:05 AM

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

What will happen when we start to fall apart?







we will learn to fix ourselves.










it was just a few things I wanted you know.
actually, this was all i wanted you to know.
i thought you'd look at me from a different perspective if you did.
or maybe not?



i guess its just one more thing that i'll have to let go.
or hide.









tell me what i should do for myself.

I'm desperate.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:54 AM

MISSING

is my suspended emotion.




surprise me.
emptiness blurred my vision.
i cant see you even if you're close by.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:52 AM

Monday, March 29, 2010
Share

with me

because i need it right now,
let me see your insides.

or write me off.
because I'd rather starve now
if you wont open up.






I'd tell you if only I had a clue.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:33 AM

If

milk was black,

the world would be a little less disappointing.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:32 AM

You

make me feel unimportant

while

you make me feel wronged with your insensitivity.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:30 AM

BACK.

with unintended, vague-ish joy and personal disappointments.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:27 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Let's Vanish

Ok, Tom

lets just vanish.










because you need to keep sane.

♥/LiterallyTom/5:38 PM

Monday, March 15, 2010
The coming of new grounds. Perspectives

Here I was,
at the top of the city.

making sense.
again.
picking up memory fragments.
I have left.

seems unfinished though.
like something was supposed to happen
something important.

I was right.



How unfortunate is it that I realised it only now?


well, undeniably, it is not too late.

I know now, the reasons.
It is the realisation that gave me knowledge.

the better perspectives.



How could I have missed that?



special.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:32 AM

Seasons

just like seasons,
we develop.




something we remember,
something we forget.



but unlike nature,
we prosper from control.





and just like seasons,
we cycle




remember then,
we've been here before.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:20 AM

Sunday, March 14, 2010
oh naise.

GAY.
but im addicted to the song.

omg i like the song.


omg polly im not gay but i like the song.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:06 AM

Tuesday, March 9, 2010
vlog #3 to make believe?

yay!

♥/LiterallyTom/3:30 AM