Monday, May 31, 2010

OMG.
Whenever Sonia smiles,
i feel like she's smiling at me.

omg Sonia you are so cute.

ya I know,
I'm pathetic
*Story of my life much =.=*

this video is my sweet escape.


just enough for me to forget everything
for awhile =D


SONIA I WANNA MEET YOU.
nah, not really.

♥/LiterallyTom/8:11 PM

=D

Thanks Kahyen and Joanne <3<3<3<3
for keeping me sane!


and spending time with me!








♥/LiterallyTom/3:32 AM

you know I said forever right? as in, forever?

You don't know how much lies I had to give away,
to make it through today.

you have no idea.



you have no fucking idea.



you don't know how much the lies were killing me
but my pride just couldn't take such shame.
I thought you had a plan.


I know I was lying to myself.




I kept believing you had a plan anyway.



You don't know how I just sat there,
wishing I was home.

or hoping you had a plan

you don't know how much I was
begging for you to have a plan.




but you have no idea.
you have no fucking idea.





that you very much still exist.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:24 AM

Saturday, May 29, 2010
I hope you noticed,

I couldn't stop looking at you.
I mean it.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:26 AM

so little time
so much to do
I'd rather spend my days with you.



really,
i'm supposed to have alotttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
of shit to blog about.



but oh wells.
shall save them for now.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:55 AM

yeah, i know i'm rude and all that.

The only reason why we can't be together is because of me
and my unbelievably huge problem of getting over with things.
thats why I have 2 memory boxes.
and whole 1/3 of a wardrobe filled with untouched items
that god knows why,
and apparently I'm still waiting for them to once again make
me recall things which i know, that are not worth saving for.

so please suck it up

because I have a problem






you don't have to make it more complicated than this.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:29 AM

Friday, May 28, 2010
for to you, it doesn't matter anymore.

hahahahahaha
I think you're funny <3

read my different faces.
maybe you'll be able to truly read me.

but don't think it's that simple
because even if you achieve that
effort driven task,


its difficult to meet the wave and the shore of the beach
when the tsunami is coming.

thats the extent.


I'm sorry,
maybe you don't deserve my history.

how impossible can this ethernet be?

laugh.
at everything we shared.

laugh.
at everything we care about.

♥/LiterallyTom/4:10 AM

I guess I still miss you
Oh well, it's me and you
What else should we do?

When talking is for functioning people.


♥/LiterallyTom/4:03 AM

Tuesday, May 25, 2010
In my own skin. In my own skin.

and so much more.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:10 AM

Sunday, May 23, 2010

and truth,
as it is,
might not be in your favour.

learn to walk away.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:28 AM

Saturday, May 22, 2010
hahaha erm ok, this is embarassing.

ok so last thurs was my 2nd time I actually came for
FOOD & BEVERAGE lecture.

and it's the 5th week now.


I know this is gonna ruin me if i saw it,
but I think Mr Wong Kum Kit
is really charming.
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAA
he makes me gay.


OH SHIT.
THIS ISN'T FUNNY.
hahahhahahaa.
Don't worry.

I'm not gay.

I still love girls.
Shucks, I will need to say ladies or women soon.
I love girls not ladies.
there's a difference

anyway, that isn't the point.


The point is, I think Mr Wong is a fine, fine man.
ok nvm.


That aside,
These few weeks the only think I wish to do is to stay at home.
which is really weird.
Whenever class ends earlier,
I'm always rushing to get home.
Somehow I just wanna be away from school.


and I just realised something,
it's not that I wanna be home.
I finally understand that I just don't wanna stay
at the same place for too long.

It's the reason why I find comfort in
long bus rides and mrt rides.
and alternative ways of reaching home.
It's because I know I'm always on the move
without 'physically being on the move'

hence,
I believe I won't like driving.
because I know I won't be able to marvel and appreciate
wherever I'm at, in any given moment in time.
I can't actually explain why though.


breakthrough breakthrough breakthrough

Don't anyone get in my way.
DON'T GET IN MY WAY.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:27 AM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

when life picks up,
you sabotage yourself.

♥/LiterallyTom/5:46 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Glad to be

HOME!


apparently faith was on MC today,
which means class is only an hour long.

which also means,
an hour long of blindly copying notes into tutorial paper.

which also means,
crappy attendance,

which also means,
Tom won't bother going to school.


because, it takes 45mins to travel to school,
hence its 1.5hours++ to go and come back.

which is obviously more time spent than staying in school.


so.........
wooooo i declare a holiday today =D

anyway the guys and girls
wanted me to be their mascot for fyp.
which i thought about it (really, I did)
and I declined that wonderful (ok, not really) offer

its spells more disturbing the classes to talk.
really, I'm kinda sick of it.
and I know the whole school knows me because of that.
I'm famous for disrupting classes.

BE Day,
Dinner & Dance,
Yearbook.

They'll be like
"oh not him again =.="

ALTHOUGH its good because I hvnt met the first year events students yet.

NAHHHHH.


anyway,
I've super unproductive today.
and Jimmy's been super irritating.


I'm supposed to have alot of things to say,
but I totally forgot shitzzz.

so I'll blog again later.





If I still have the mood to write.

♥/LiterallyTom/7:43 PM

sometimes, we are annonymous

but sometimes,
change is better.

♥/LiterallyTom/7:32 PM

Monday, May 17, 2010

when all fails,
Pretend.

deeply.

♥/LiterallyTom/5:31 AM

These walls must not start talking.

ohh god,
I cannot keep up this murderous charade.




Ignorance is out of reach.
My actions are haunting me.


ohh god,
I don't want to keep up this murderous charade.



Please don't uncover the truth.
Please don't uncover the truth.

oh no.
SHIT.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:04 AM

Saturday, May 15, 2010

I'd be a liar If I said I was telling the truth half the time,
I keep it locked inside,
Under a pile of smiles and deceit,
I will thrive, thrive...
I will die an honest man

even if I have to be dishonest

♥/LiterallyTom/1:26 AM

Friday, May 14, 2010
recover.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:21 AM

Blasted.

Oh god, not again.

I just had it done yesterday.
FML seriously, FML.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:17 AM

Thursday, May 13, 2010
So we do know...

few more hours till I'm
out for jamming.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:58 PM

Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Raining on my parade no longer affects me.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:57 PM

Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Human, only human.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:59 PM

Because you're dangerous.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:09 AM

TOM NEEDS HELP BEFORE HE SPIRALS.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:55 AM

Throwing punches, at ocean waves.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:38 AM

Monday, May 10, 2010

♥/LiterallyTom/11:02 PM

"Because the one thing that we can't run away from is our feelings"





thank you scrubs for always teaching me life's lessons.

♥/LiterallyTom/8:59 PM

Sunday, May 9, 2010
Lullabies, Tephra over my aura.

Burning away my youth as your presence brought me.....
brought me those summer field.
Complexity is overrated
And you took away my summer.

My field,
The clouds didn't seem to notice its constant plea.
grey, grey,
as it rained on my lonely parade
when all I wanted for was its isolation.
But no,
you just had to turn away.

our lives looked so small.
our lives.
while it was still intertwined.
But no,
you just had to turn away.


Those kissable morning rain
Gave me more reasons to hide.
But why must we hide?
Must I cower over the recent loss?
Then what if your scars don't heal?
Will the hills breed stars?

I'm glued in this traffic
while watching everyone
walking past.
Time,
Time,
Catching up seems impossible when feelings can't intertwine.
Feelings don't compute.


burying wont matter for now.
fading into oblivion could have been best.


Don't laugh at me,
Fuck you,
everything reminds me of you.

♥/LiterallyTom/4:06 AM

"Don't", she said.

Its 4am.
Sunday's already here.


I slept at 8am last morning and woke up at 6pm.
as I had expected.
quite happy that I can finally have some shut eye.

Fri was a terrific day.


met a hellllll lot of old friends.

apart from the normal Joanne, Kahyen meetups of course.

Vicknesh, Fadli, Christina, Mirliana (L)
and many many many more.
=D LIKE.

ended up walking Mir home since it was otw.
Misses Misses all the peeple.


Oh yea, Fri was bro's percussion ensemble concert.
As expected, he was on drum set.
His drum solo was O.O

yes, Joanne I'm F***ing proud of him.
No, I hvnt seen him playing the drums for such a looooooong time.
Well, his drum solo was as good as I had imagined uh.
awesome awesome.


5am breakfast again with twin.
JOANNE & KAHYEN IM SO DISAPPOINTED.
no luh.
joking =D


I wasn't actually expecting to see you two. haha.

5am hello?
soo early.
Only people not in the right mind like me and nash would do such a thing luh.


Missed Pak Kiu's birthday party.
SORRY PAK.






well, let me be buried soon.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:50 AM

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

give me one reason if you got one reason
say there ain't no reason why we shouldn't get together tonight.

HAHAHAHAHAH<3

TV commercial songs <3

♥/LiterallyTom/3:00 AM

Monday, May 3, 2010

400th post. =D


this week was quite unproductive.
i missed lectures from Monday to Thurs.
and was 15mins early for Friday lecture.


anyway, I'd like to send some shoutouts and props to mai homies!


-SUPER THANKS Pearly for letting me borrow your
WS & H notes. I borrowed it for like damn long uh.


-SUPER SORRY twin for missing your set. Like seriously I feel really bad.
I AM SORRY NASH. 5.30AM BREAKFAST <3 we will do it again soon POSSIBLY WITH SAM.


-SUPER OMG Sam your handwriting doesn't fit you. YOUR HANDWRITING IS NICER THAN ANY GIRL I KNOW. damn i don't feel good coz your handwriting is neater than mine. 5.30AM BREAKFAST SAM POSSIBLY WITH NASH.


-SUPER YAY to Mabel after like 2 years of absense. ok, not really absense, just that I haven't seen you! DAMN, I WISH PEOPLE WILL ACCOMPANY ME TO MUSEUMS. Me like artsy fartsy peeps. <3


-SUPER WISHES to Wenyi that your laptop finally recovers from bad repairs from 'them'.
OH and thanks for helping me get my notes YAY!


-SUPER BOO to MR CHIN a.k.a. MR CRIMSON CHIN (fairly oddparents) HAHA. MR CHIN IS MY BESTFRFIEND.

Mr CHIN: You got girlfriend?
Mee: Errr.... No.
Mr CHIN: SEE if you cut your hair, surely got one long line of girls wanting to be your girlfriend
Mee: TSK I'M UGLY LAH
Mr CHIN: =D
Mee: TSK OIE MR CHIN! YOU GO HOME LAH! BYE LAH!



-SUPER WOOOOO! to Lez's band, DEEP FRIED NINJA hahahahahaha. AWESOME SET on CINE.


-SUPER HUGE LOL to QIUYAN and her never-ending LOL chants. LIKE SERIOUSLY LOL, there should be a crime for saying so much L-O-Ls in a lifetime.


-SUPER CHEEK PINCH to AMANDA the CHIKORITA. PLEASE BE A LESBIAN AND REVEAL SOME OF THAT CUTESY CUTESY!


-SUPER BRO HIGH FIVE SLAP to MIC CHOI! because you are cool. AND WE TAKE THE SAME LINE HOME. YAY red line buddy!


-SUPER ANTICIPATION EXCITEMENT to my personal maids (bestfriends to me) JOANNE AND KAHYEN. 7th MAY my bro's PERCUSSION ENSEMBLE @ NYP! OIE JOANNE you haven't replied me. AND ARE YOU FEELING BETTERRR????? OIE KAHYEN! DON'T EMO! I take back my virus from you luh! <3 HARTheartHART


-SUPER OIE to JIMMEH BOY! OIE JIMMY cold storage/chill time soon! ENTERTAIN ME coz i need it =( CAN'T YOU TELL I'M SAD????? HAHAHAHAHAHA







here is a list of what I need to do. ASAP.

-finishing copying WS & H notes
-finish WS & H tutorial which I didnt hand in. crap.
-FYP ppt
-finish Oh Why, Rain Me (personal project) FIRST ORIGINAL
-finish sequencing PTP FIRST ORIGINAL drums
-MICE MANAGEMENT TUTORIAL
-Edit & Upload videos (The Journey, Home/Find My Way (Back Home) )
-IT TUTORIAL (I think im too late. ARGH. shit don't do this to me)
-IT ppt
-SLEEP
-learn 30 and 7 bass parts
-learn to stop thinking 2469832913745948513 things at once
-MOVE ON
-keep taking things easy
-Configure laptop
-INSTALL MICROSOFT OFFICE


and more.






shit i should be doing them now.
My life kills.
I wish I could keep things simple.
But my brain won't let me.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:33 AM

losing was fine,
until this house fell apart.


slowly,
the road less traveled fails to impress.
I never looked forward to it anyway.


history just rang.
I'm forced in this imprisonment.


fighting won't matter anyway.
so keep moving on this path.
let's give the benefit of doubt to this certainty.







because everything still meant something.
though depleting, fast.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:32 AM

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I smiled at her today
and she smiled back.
her smiles made me tingle
it was a ray of sunshine



I WANT A DAUGHTER TOO! =D

♥/LiterallyTom/3:30 AM