wow.
tonight's gonna be a storm.



first day of fasting month was.....
normal?
ate a bowl 1/10 filled with cereal for early breakfast.
which i managed to salvage every bit of energy of it for the rest of the day.

and im quite pleased with that.

but freakin ate aloooot at night.
ok not reali alot.
ate dinner and thats all.


no, im not gonna waste away this post mumbling how the day went.

instead I wanna talk about Chanoknun. lovelovelove

no, im kidding.
everyone's gonna go crazy if I did.

Im wanna talk about me.
Tom.
(or usually Torm by some.)

ok, just some facts about myself.
(i dunno why im talking about myself but heck it)


-I DON'T practice what I preach.
-I have random counteracting extremes level of seeking attention.
(rephrase, sometimes I want to be in the centre of the universe. Other times, I want to live in a rock)
helped? i guess not.
-I have super fast random mood swings.
-Being vain is an understatement for me.
-I'm a thinking, reflecting, soul searching machine.
(but I dun get anything done.)
-I can read and write korean!!
(but I will never understand what it means)
-I LOVE heart 2 heart talks



starting from the first point,
yea, i dun practice what i preach.

so most advice that I give are actuali spontaneous, obvious or passed by someone else.
of course not all.
I do have some intelligence that proved that I am able to give good advices.


like if you are a relationship virgin,
(or rephrased as never been in a relationship before)
I would say,
"Get into freakin relationship and get ur oh-so-delicate heart broken. That is f-ing life. Heartbroken is freakin part of life."

AND

"Get some experience on relationship will ya? YOU WILL NEED IT"

secondly,
I have random counteracting extremes level of seeking attention.


sometimes I feel like screamin
"Look at me!!! LOOK AT MY FACE!!!!"
coz i want to be noticed. =D
yes, my hair was a result of my extreme attention seeking nature.
which of coz includes the number of "HELLO! and BYE!!"
I receive (or produce) in a day in school.


and sometimes I feel like reading a book at a corner
just so that people won't see me.


I wish I could turn visible and invisible whenever I want to.
no, not that i could follow chanoknun home,
but so that I could get home without worrying if people are looking at me.
yes, as much as I love people looking at me,



I GET SCARED OF IT.



you may ask then,
why I'm not afraid of doing super silly/weird/crazy/wacky things
at times?
well, I JUST DON'T KNOW


like I said,
I have random counteracting extremes level of seeking attention.
I am INSECURE.
I am AFRAID OF WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME
I am AFRAID OF BEING JUDGED
(thats why I dun judge ppl. much)

which brings me to digress for a moment,


TOM is paranoid when/about:

-Getting mugged on the streets
I get paranoid easily when strangers get too close to me while walking. Even if they are small kids or old people.

-more than 5 people are doing something random in synchronise at the same time
I dont knw why. It gets me thinking that something weird and totally out of this world is gonna happen.

-Going through the MRT gates.

-Switching on mp3 player.
I'm scared that I might get shocked by the loud music.

-Greeting home when no one is in.
I'm scared that my greet gets replied but no one is actuali home.

-watching movies in cinemas (or thriller/horror movies)
I don't like to get shocked. =D yes, i knw i like to shock/surprise ppl. Moreover, I hate it when the face of the ghost if full screen-ed. Feels like its bigger than me.

-vomitting
I'm scared I might vomit my insides out. I'm serious.

-when I have to speak malay to strangers
I dunno why. Im puzzled myself.

ok digression end.




I have super fast random mood swings.

People who know me well might know.
My mood swings are controlled by my thoughts.
Not my heart.
Since my thoughts are activated 24/7 at the rate of a few hundreds of thoughts per second,
my feelings (or mood) is affected tremendously.


Being vain is an understatement for me.
NO elaboration neeeeeded.
Wysiwyg.



I'm a thinking, reflecting, soul searching machine.
as a result, Im blogging about it.
Im still thinking.

I can read and write korean~
triggered (and fueled) by my love for SNSD.
or specifically Yoona.
ok, my passion for SNSD is getting drowned actuali.
Im not so crazy about them nimore.








SeE yOu.
I miss ttyping like that.