i know you won't admit this
i'm just a silhouette to you.

I.Am.TOM.

18
Dip in Events & Project Management (SP)

iContemporary
iContradict.
iFun
iLOVE.
iWild
iInspired
iWacky
iWrite
iThink(too much)
iLongWalks
iInsecure
iMusic
iArts
iIsolate
iVeryFriendly
iSelfMotivate


who really needs the past?
with the allure of something new.


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com



and you'll never have to see
the light that wraps itself around me

The LoveHate Lines we Drew
*Joanne
*Kahyen

The Bittersweet Class 04
*Angela
*Daren
*Is
*Jasmine
*Louis
*Meiying
*Pearly
*Puihoon
*Sylvia
*Theresa

The Bends that Shaped me
*CSS band
*Cruyff
*Fikri
*Icha
*Jannah
*Jean
*John
*Nashrul
*Nick
*Nisaa
*Normann
*Sammmuel
*Samantha
*Seif
*Wanyin

so i try to post from my existence
i'll stop or start my heart if you ask me to.

August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
November 2010
December 2010


and I kept on believing
there is one thing left to hold on to

trippin'-
stumblin'-
flippin'-
fumblin'
sinkin'






AFTER YOU


Monday, November 23, 2009
the sent

long long long long.




sooo saturday (i mean 2weeks ago) was Idris' birthday.

and so metalcore and pure hardcore scene kids were present.
therefore, a 100% malay attendence.

it was quite sickening actuali.
with mats and scene minahs drinking and getting themselves wasted.
omg they suck.


so jimmy, zeeq and I brought out the guitar
and went to the pool.
yes, typical malays.

but beats getting super wasted, puking everywhere
and getting in trouble.
damn.

so we composed a song.
and the chorus goes like


"so tie your hair in an old fashion way you never said goodbye you never tie your hair."

hahahahah like wtf?

hahaha random lyrics make the world go round.


so we decided to head over to pasir ris beach and sit.
sit.
and so,
a heart to heart talk.
@3am.


like zeeQ said,
we are the 3 geeks in Superbad!



fast forward to
Mouthful of Air videoshoot.
it was fun.

ok i'll end it at that.


Ok, Roosevelt debut last Saturday~
guess thats how long i've left this blog.
It was awesome.
like... awesome awesome.

everyone went crazy-ish when we started playing
Attack Attack's "Hot Grills & High Tops"
awesome.


followed by stick stickly aftr that.nicceeeee.

well
Alot of things happened lately.
and hell im buusy.
and yearbook 1st draft submission isssin't helping.
well its good that im busy.
makes me feel wanted and alive.

im not gonna make myself invisible nimore.
i wont go down that road.




byebye perth looks like i cant visit u now.

I knew it.
too good to be true.
dammit.

stupid exams.
school is starting to annoy.
annoy me further school,
and someone gets it.


♥/LiterallyTom/12:49 AM



Thursday, November 19, 2009
Oh Relinquish, Songbird

Been listening to this song.
Its a classic, based on a poem by a famous malaysian poet.
about a bird, a garuda, a chinese princess and a rome - it was spelt as rum so i guess its rome - prince

you can read it here
http://azanin.net/pages/poem-jentayu.htm

its in malay =D
yes,surprised surprised.

haha.
heard the song when mom turned on the radio.

so soothing.
I feel so inspired.




so here's the lyrics translated to english.


Sadness glistens on your beak
Coated with a million feelings
The nobility of your heart
Your sparkling goodness driven on the vast shore of the world
The flanks of storm you explore
Through the clouds you bring news of ( the one she ) misses
Your love fights against cruelty and injustice


Jentayu wings broken, use beak as a walking stick
Jentayu beak broken, use elbow as a walking stick
Jentayu elbow broken, use chin as a walking stick
Jentayu chin broken, use claws as walking stick

Lend to all your heart

Lend to all your elegance


ok it sounds very corny in English.
(not to mention super weird)
well it sounds smooth and marvelous in malay
since its a story/poem.



ANW.



ok an update finally.
hvnt been updating coz I've been busy - with sch.
and not to mention that I've been staying over
at aunt's place - in hougang- for some weeks now


alot actuali happened.
so this is goonnna be a long post. like yay.


Mr Dinesh (yes, THAT Dinesh) took me, Faiz and Nizam
out for a boys night out-ish last fri.
more of a dinner though.

and its fun coz Nizam + Mr Dinesh = Funny Fun F***ers

we get to listen to random arguments.
and since Mr Dinesh is our friend and not a sec sch teacher,
words and vulgarities doesnt get us detention animore.

which Mr Dinesh uses in frequent doses as well.
it is fun when teachers aren't restricted to what they can say.

and wow,
updates on Canberra sec shocked us like crazy.


and then we found ourselves cruising through AngMoKio and Bishan amidst the
super loud crunk/hiphop/reggae/rap/pop hindi songs.
How loud?

lets say everyone that was walking was practically looking into the car.

I had to leave early coz of jamming
while they continued on to watch Paranormal Activity.

which I would like to digress over here

I watch a few scenes from jimmy's downloaded version.
it was scary if i was watching it in the threatres.

love the oujia board on fire part. damn cooll.
makes me wonder how crazy it is,
since its based on a true story.

brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!


and they hv 2 different endings.
one is the 'mainstream' ending while the other one is the real ending.



and so,
Jamming was awesome.
first original titled "Mousetrap and Death Calls"
its a song which John was inspired by Hamlet.

so ppl cant say we are jus some typical band playing 'love songs'


its sounds great.
especially my emo part HHAHAHAHAHAHA


theres jamming tmr too.
sooooooo looking forward to this.



ok moving on,
the nxt day(aftr dinner with Mr Dinesh that is)
there was another 'dinner'.
except we were fooled.

it was in Canberra sec now. yea, 2 days of canberra sec. gahh

Apparently when CSSB said dinner,
they meant CAMP dinner.
NOT DINNER WITH NICE BUFFET/COURSE MEAL.
coz yes, it was during their camp.

but more than that, it was meant for Mr Lee inevitable goodbye.
(notice i said inevitable)
Mr Lee was a father to us all man.


but its ok.
i wonder how the new instructor is gonna be like.
like hoohoo.
i hope its someone stricter.


and we had fun playing the one word/one phrase/one sentence game aftr that.
jus us seniors!


with Auzaie blurting nonsense like "i... am... a... flasher!" and "i.. am.. GAY!"
random blurts of words can be enticing.



ok watever.

and I thought i'd like to share this:





a shoe shop in admiralty is called KARA.
dammit so undeserving lah ok.

KARA is so way better than this.


Sylvia: HAHAHAHA *laughing at Mr Kenneth butt*
Tom: TIGHT
US: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA



and Angela said something in class
which made me super suspicious of stuffs.


Angela: eh Tom! Someone said something to me about you in FC1 jus now!
Tom: huh? what? WHAT? WHAAAAAATT? OIE WHAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!
Angela: *laughs* *gossips* *probabli telling Is about it*


hmmm and they kept looking at the other side.
hmmmmmmmm..... suspicious suspicious.



and the girls talking about vibrators made me laugh.



sweet innocent girls talking about sexuality is funny.
and was quite amazed by louis, pak and daren awesome soccer skillzzzz~
they totally owned that opponent's team mannnnn!




crouching knuckles, hidden talent big LOL@ grace
turns out she could do the veins movement at the knuckles
so man sia!
i oso can do.
and i thought oni guy can do!


anw i ssshowed this to her alr.
and so im posting it here!!

ok, it isnt good or wat.
but give it a listen =D






yes, the float mop is me.

ok, updates close.


♥/LiterallyTom/7:30 PM



Wednesday, November 11, 2009
hello missy~ i see you

theres reali nothing that you can do
when the other is bent on staying on the safe side.

jus like the slot machine,
Insert more credits to try again,
or jus turn your back.

theres always a way to win the jackpot.

You jus need enough funds, a forgiving attitude and a heart to believe.



But Tom, you did your best.
Its reali not your fault.

what you reali need, is time.
and lots of forgiving attitude.


yes, you know forgiving attitude is an understatement.
you keep forgiving yourself to try harder next time.
give yourself a pat.


you know you deserve credits.


but questions you shd nvr fail to ask yourself,
where are you looking?
why all the wrong places?


but beyond that, tighten your defences,


you need to retreat soon.
withdraw before you break.
withdraw before you break.




Been doing alot of thinking lately.
I finally realised that marriage isn't all about tight lifetime routines, bills and planned sex.
Its about spending time and growing together.

and knowing that comfort is a small step away even when life's sending pale lemons.

yea you'd probabli think its still too early to be thinking about all those stuff.
but its not.

coz if think about it,
when you were in primary sch, and ur teachers keep saying "I wish I was 18"
U'd probabli be thinking. "ok, none of my business. 18 years old is about a million years later"

but wow years pass so fast, ur actuali 18 now.


and time is gonna keep on freakin zooming past in a speed of light
and soon, ur gonna be trying to fend off spiders from eating the dead skin off ur toes.



so yea,
if u still think its too early then its too bad,
coz ur so short-sighted.




Meiying: but they(headlights) are not light wat!
*makes an epic hand gesture*


hahahahah
like wtf the most epic sentence she could say that the instance.



slowly but surely,
irritation kicks in.


♥/LiterallyTom/7:31 PM



Tuesday, November 3, 2009
when everybody's burning.




norman's myspace profile was randomly selected in the top friends section
for Swimming With Dolphins' myspace page.



I am so jealous wtf.


yea, its set to random.
but still, its pretty f-ing awesome. argh!


♥/LiterallyTom/3:27 AM