Thursday, April 29, 2010

I'll fall before I start fighting
but you'll never see me crumble.

♥/LiterallyTom/11:40 PM

Monday, April 26, 2010

Wooooooooo!
presentation went great.
woo YAY YAY.


I think I'm sick and twisted.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:00 PM

26th

A day after.



Intentions are sacred
Some breeds sacrifice
Intentions are deep inside
Most breeds sacrifice
Intentions are self-reliance
They breed sacrifice


If it's about your intentions,
Tom, keep sacrificing.
For it should never be about you.






If it's cold outside, we need a jacket.
we'll feel comfortable

If it's hot outside, we need shades
we'll feel comfortable




jackets hug us
shades protect us



because every human needs help
no matter how simple it may seem






A perfection like you is irreplaceable

♥/LiterallyTom/12:48 AM

Thursday, April 22, 2010
We finally remembered. red, the red.

The first week of sch is just like how I had imagine.
wasn't pretty.
but well, perserverence is the only virtue for now.
though the lectures and tutorials have been kind.
FOR NOW.

Final year project is in progress
and damn, yearbook is still in progress.
shit.
the fyp people are bonding quite smoothly now.
I kinda enjoy being in everyone's company actually.
like the 14(i think) of us!

I do wonder though,
how long would this apparent friendship
would last before everyone hates each other.

but i guess we aren't gonna be to hard on each other.
2 years in 04 taught me however hard it is,
we always compromise and no one gets hurt.
I'm guessing its gonna be the same for us.

Awesome Night Safari event!
yay!
Thinking about it,
I'm probably one of the luckiest person in school.
Youth Olympics for ITP.
Such an awesome event for FYP.

And today's tutorial, for the love of god,
was probably the easiest shit ever.
I mean, who calls copying notes a tutorial????
well, in event, we call beautifying our facebook profile a tutorial.
uploading a photo on facebook to win a contest a tutorial.
No one has it like we do <3
ok whatever, since when was I even proud of my own course anyway.
who am i kidding.

I hate the very fact that I need to do research of the upcoming events online
because I'm just too lazy.
And that is probably an easy one.
Gosh I should be more thankful though.

Presentation to CASS director this friday.
FML. FML.

Jamming for 2 days straight.
firstly with Xiao Ming, Yon and JJ @ Moberly
hahahahahah funny jamming time.
The jamming space is like woah huge.
But it has a noise limiter.
WHAT THE SHIT LAH.
thats such a ruiner.
Apparently, the mat band that played before killed the bass amp.



Had PTP jamming just now @ some place in Sultan Plaza
called Alliance something.
The acoustics suck though they have high end equipments.
Apparently my autotune isn't working as I thought it would.
damn. shit.
I'm gonna figure that out.


Oh, PTP performing tmr night.
I wonder what I shd wear.
argh, why must I have school tmr.
damn you sam for not having sch tmr.
If anyone wants to see us perform,
its @ blackhole.
I think we are playing at like.... 9pm-ish
It's $6 bucks or $8 or smth.
hahahhaahah

Anyway, I keep spacing out nowadays.

I think I'm gonna have to treat myself to whatever I think is good soon.
This difficulty in sleeping isn't healthy at all.
Oh wait, I came home at 9pm yesterday and slept instantly
without even changing my clothes
because I didnt sleep for 2 days.
And I must say, sleeping in jeans made me comfortable.
I didn't feel cold with the fan set at level 1.

yes, I need to switch off the fan in the middle of the night
because I get super cold even though its only in
the first and the slowest speed.

Well, I don't think I'll be sleeping today either.
Strangely, I never feel tired when I'm in sch this week.
But each time I step home, I feel like I just came back from gym or smth.
and the thing is, I can't sleep.
I'll zombie around the house and I'll spread my virus
and zombify my family with my emotionless look.


hahahahah my mom's worried at my dieting
and my health.
and my dad's hopping into the worried boat too.
which is really weird because he's not usually the worried type.
Of course, he is concern, just that he lets mom handle things around the house.

but it's just that my appetite decreased.
so I can't help it if I don't eat when I'm home.
Oh wait, i don't even eat much in school too.
and this lack of sleep made my eyes droopy.
and like I said, I it only occurs when I reach home.
Which really, is the funny thing.
hahahaha. hmmmm.... something's up with me ahhhh.

noooooooo.....
I refuse to be as skinny as Joanne
who prefers to be fat.

Humans will never be contented.
Hence Joanne, naturally, you'd want to be fat.
And if you were to be fat, you'd want to be skinny!
yay, I think I made sense there.


Is it just me, or is another month coming to an end??

like woah, its coming to may in about a week.
2010 is really flying past man.
We're reaching half of the year soon!
Earth you can do it!
Don't die on us humans yet!
Please hold on for like..... 60 more years?
well I don't think I'm gonna live that long.
so maybe like 30 - 40 more years would be good.
or even 10 -20 years.
I'll die young, whatever.

and with the uncaring way of 'looking after myself',
hahahahaha, I think when I'm 40, alot of people will die
because god must compensate others' lives so i can
stay on living.
hahahahaahaah,
I'd probably die by 40 I suppose.


It's not a deathwish, it's a thought!

of course, I'd be honoured to live past 40.
or maybe not.
By then, the Earth is probably a warzone with all the natural disasters
keep terrorizing.

Anyway, I always thought I should live through teens and die when im like....
25 - 26?
yeah, I used to wish that I had some kind of terminal disease and die peacefully
at a young age.
I think alot of people had that kind of wish before though.
damn so unoriginal.



Well, since May's coming, it means, my birthday!
hahahha ok I'm not actually trying to remind people.
I just wanted to mention that I know quite a few people
that is or was close to me with their bithday's in May!
like SAM! 29 may!
My elder BROTHER! 9 may!
Melissa, i forgot. was it 28? wait, was her birthday even on may?
and the best one, SUHAILAH 30 May. COINCIDENCE.
We cried together lol. maybe not same hospital but hey whatever.
and you're now in Australia for the past 6 years.
we were funny uh.
MIR! 24May!
oh and SNSD's Yoona. 30 May.
hahahhahaa cool. but kpop doesnt interest me anymore.
so goodbye to copying-western-songs-due-to-lack-of-creativity, songs.

well friendship die often.
and new friend come butting into your life.
bittersweet, bittersweet.




omg, I didn't realise this post has grown to be super wordy.
yay.
*sniff sniff*
How much you've grown!
I seems like just a minute ago I started typing on you!
hahahaha.
what am I thinking wtf.


I really post some pictures but I wanna save them for my vlogs.
yes, its been a long long time.
I'm busy ok.
I wanna show transformer penis.
but I must save it for that epic vlog moment.

Ok, must go now.
time to take out my bass and go jiggy with it.
hahahahahah so wrong
well, my days are numbered.
I better go now.


Have a good night people of the Earth. <3
We should all have lunch sometime.
love.

♥/LiterallyTom/12:35 AM

Monday, April 19, 2010

omg seriously, just kill me already.

♥/LiterallyTom/2:12 AM

I WILL NEVER REST.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:52 AM

Sunday, April 18, 2010
when no one's talking

insomnia.
insomnia.


I know I'm tired.
but i can't sleep.
my mind's too full of thoughts.
its like my brain is an overflowing bucket of water.
somehow when the light is off,
all the thoughts in the world come crashing into my head.

I'm sick of thinking.
My brain's just too tired.
but I can't sleep.
my stomach's grumbling
and my body is breaking down from malnutrition.

I feel so hot
but I shiver the second I switch on the fan.
Air-con makes me sick so thats never gonna be installed in the house.

I need some shut eye to escape from my thoughts.
even such a simple, lazy task is impossible now.

I'll just try to sleep again later in the night then.
don't make me vulnerable.

♥/LiterallyTom/4:44 AM

fear of music.

Music born in a side of the world,
other citizens only heard of.
yet its encircling melody binds,
hearts of millions.

how, such simple string of words
and pitch could direct such a play.

in this city, I saw myself in the mist
of its witty rhythm.
in this city, we saw ourselves buried
in the warm sands of them harmony.
in this city, we long to connect through
the familiarity of this shared music.
maybe, that song can once more work its magic.


and we all know that familiarity will breed
emotions.
emotions they breed, as one may well know,
aren't too soft for our hearts to join in its festive.
harsh, harsh.
we all know the tormenting nature of this familiarity.

yet, its soothing voice strokes me gently
with its faithful ambiance.
how my heart melts when we started to listen.
no,
how our hearts melt when we started to listen.


how the situation differs from the time of them music.
the time when the camera flashed white exuberance.
how our hearts were beating to the thrill of the music.
the time when we were watching the breathless, serene scenery
of the flowing river while greeting to grace the sonic motions
of the dedicated ships.


Music, so bitter and cold, so lush and tranquil.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:23 AM

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Wae-oh-wah-oh-wah-oh

Wae-oh-wah-oh-wah-oh



choco i miss you dancing.
miss you dancing with me.

everyday-e-yeh

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

choco we're undercover
you give me flowers when away

everyday-e-yeh

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
kitkat rocks my socks.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:40 PM

hahahahahahahaha.

when they come down, they come down with a strike.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:40 PM

in your silence.

tell me dear,
and I such a revolting person?


dont run away
am i such a bad memory?


share with me,
because you need it right now.
let me see your insides.



or even write me off.




I'd listen to anything at all


and yet, still, I try to converse.

♥/LiterallyTom/9:43 PM

Friday, April 16, 2010
somewhere, somehow

Sitting, looking from the sidelines hurts so badly.



for such a long time,
I've always seen blogs as not just another social networking tool,
but also a medium to spread language art
through extensive, exaggerated use of emotions.

While I'm the only one that actually put sense into the words
recklessly typed into this everchanging
(less so, in the years that came though)
site, others find a mutual vacant idea slapped across each posts.

and my hypothesis come across as being substantially sound, justified by own posts.
THAT hypothesis being people may think I'm just another person that does not
create a level of interest in blogging.

well, being the undisputed master of this loathesome blog,
evidently, I'm really quite nonchalant to any kind of claims,

but thats really not the point right now.


And really, there isn't any definite agenda to begin with
And maybe ths could evenbe the first post in such a long time that actually
made sense language-wise from the viewpoint of a reader.

BUT I DIGRESSED. (I know i deviate alot)
Well whatever posts that anyone may have read in this blog that
just doesn't compute, it is probably my mind that was talking,
trying to save itself before it spirals into a crescendo of some sorts
that may lead to a chance of insanity.

And really, this body of mine saw that route and it wasn't at all pretty.
Took awhile before I began to de-zombify. dread it.

somehow my mind could transpose all the pictures, lines, blurry words and vague events happening in my mind into definite, audible words.
I have issues with myself that only known people could comprehend.

My mind blanked out after "comprehend" and i spaced for almost an hour.

MOVING ON

After a fashion, though, my mind could always amplify
my thoughts & emotion no matter how small it may be.

And that amplification ends up in the blog.
Sitting pretty.

I spaced again after "pretty"


These few days have been bittersweet.
I saw myself through my own disappearance.
My retreat into my thoughts proved to be a challenging one

especially with the things happening around me.
Somehow i realised how messed up parents can be.
And how self-sacrificing they can be.

I guess in the end, everyone needs help.
No matter how ugly a situation tends to evolve into,
theres always that minute detail that was never tapped on
or was never even came across as sound, practical, sane.

Just remember that a little but of soul-searching always help.
DON'T DWELL ON NEGATIVITY.

im not sure why I'm actually ranting on all that.
But I guess it's an indication of rememberance,
a constant reminder to myself.


"For all the ties that binds us,
A dream so honest,
An intention so pure,
Secrets, secrets,
This is where you're kept"


"For all these feelings that makes us...... They wont be ignored."




And yet, still, I keep trying to converse.

♥/LiterallyTom/10:39 PM

Monday, April 12, 2010

sleep tight world.




I'll see you again soon =D

♥/LiterallyTom/1:48 AM

take me out before i lose myself.




its ok, i'll lose myself.

♥/LiterallyTom/1:39 AM

life should end now.

today was fun
despite a few screw ups!



hope joanne had fun today!
happy birthday joannie!



missed ava today but its okay!
coz im accompanied by great friendssss.
somehow we never fail to create such useless conversations.
and awesomely its technically our 3rd year celebrating our own
birthdays together!


yay!



as we normally do,
camwhoring is our mutual activity!

♥/LiterallyTom/1:31 AM

Friday, April 9, 2010

I shall save my rants for later.






BigBang keeps driving me crazy with their songs.

♥/LiterallyTom/5:41 PM

Going shopping-ish for 'someone's' present later.
yes we are late.
Sorry 'someone'



and its raining now.
thunder lightning.


and im locked up in my room because
im trying to get ready for thunder and lightning in my
own house.


oh gosh, these were the days I wished I was in camp.



its like all the thoughts came sprinting back when
the OC's said the word 'goodbye'



how ironic was it that whatever 'they' advised
was whatever that they didnt do?

♥/LiterallyTom/4:25 PM

wayang

somehow, we were missing links.

♥/LiterallyTom/4:15 PM

aching, breaking
but no one saw that pain in your eyes.
still, journey wasnt left untouched.


yet you kept on living.
because you still thought everyone mattered
when you were beaten by the same.


oh god, there's so little time.
remembering my name is so difficult
yet im trying to stay awake.



i should keep myself busy since camp's done
before i spiral into my history's worst.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:53 PM

stop deceiving, start believing,



oh hi, im back home.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:47 PM

Saturday, April 3, 2010
psyched

nothing is gonna stop me.






EXPLODE!

♥/LiterallyTom/9:17 AM

everyone's speaking to me.

if someone loved you someone can love you again









where i least expected.
world, you are beautiful.

♥/LiterallyTom/4:55 AM

you need to love yourself for others to love you








thanks sam.
i needed that.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:10 AM

you need to love yourself for others to love you








thanks sam.
i needed that.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:10 AM

Friday, April 2, 2010

So now,
If only I would listen to myself.

♥/LiterallyTom/9:58 PM

a girl

asked, "when we are sad and heartbroken, what do we do to make ourselves feel better?"


the poet then answered "you cry."


the girl got confused and said, "But I've cried so much. I'm sick of it."


which the poet then prompt answered, "Did you cry because you feel hurt deep inside, or because you're letting it all out?"

he added, "Would you rather jump into a pool without water to suicide, or jump into a pool full of your own tears, knowing that it will save you and make you feel better for letting it out?"

♥/LiterallyTom/9:20 PM

History

in current affairs.

♥/LiterallyTom/8:43 PM

Enchanted.

by roaming skies.

♥/LiterallyTom/8:42 PM