Saturday, September 25, 2010
All the more should we really care about nothing,

I think just one miraculous incision could change everything.

I've been extremely busy with night safari these few weeks/days
lost count of how many times I've been there.

though its alot of fun.
even better the days spent with awesome people.
the last rehearsal I became Jiangshi.
had alot of different comments from people really.

all of them really positive!

and gonna become Jiangshi again later for walkabout.
look out Orchard Road, here comes Tom. =D

I do realise now that I'm quite thick-skinned
whenever I set my mind to it.
Though its very much still situational.
I'm quite thankful I'm the person I am.

And I'm very proud to be a person of character.
A person that sees the world the way I want to see it.
I think that's what lacking in this world.
or maybe it's just me.
Character.
I'd want my children next time to grow up
and become a person with character.

someone that looks at things differently,
someone that is not afraid to challenge ideas
but at the same time respects limitations.
someone that lives in his own philosophies,
someone that thrives in thoughts about possibilities,
someone that questions himself,
someone that is not bounded by the influences
his vast social connections directs,
someone with character.

because people are getting boring.

I like impulsive people.
They make me question the world I've built myself in.

Most people from my school or even my cousins see me as
someone weird, someone who thrives in difference.
Someone that radiates energy and activity.
A person cycling through motions.
over and over again.

I'm a slow paced person.
I like to hear myself think.
I like to spend my time in a place with low activity.
I prefer walking vast distances by myself,
observing whatever walks past me.

how every second, fate wanted
those souls to give themselves
a second just to give a quick glance
to my side.
how every moment of walking,
the world suggests to me someone
I don't know.
Why?
Why do we all walk past the person we see in the street?
Why must it be that specific person?
Is there a deeper, hidden reason to why that specific person
walked past me?

I want to know the deeper meaning of life.
This obsession with thoughts makes me who I am.
I dont know why I want to make everything
more confusing and difficult than they already are.


just that sometimes,
I need to redeem myself.
I have a constant greed to feel alive.
Alive in my own way.

I want to feel hope.
If hope was tangible,
I want to feel how it feels on my skin.

but really, I just want to know the world.
I want to understand the world.

soon.

♥/LiterallyTom/3:10 AM

Monday, September 13, 2010

hello!

did everyone had a good weekend?


I sure did =D

♥/LiterallyTom/2:08 AM

Monday, September 6, 2010
Late Night Beliefs

I cant get to sleep so I decided not too.
I'll just sleep tomorrow....
I mean, today. since its already 4.18am.

Hence I'll just post a late entry to this massively
taken for granted blog.

Well lately I've been sleeping at 5am+ and waking up
at like 5-6pm.
totally change my whole freaking lifestyle.
nocturnal, nocturnal


So i guess I should maybe update on what's
been happening in my life?
haha its not like anyone's reading this anyway.
and that notion kinda seem very overused and cliche huh?

like everyone keeps saying their blogs are never read.

well whatever.
I'm writing this with The Fire Fight's Train Song
accompanying my ears.
miss them man.
miss singing that song alongside old friends.
haiz!

Anyway,
its test & exam week now.
The YOG weeks are way overdue
but I'm gonna talk about it abit though =D

ermm... hmm....
I kinda miss that 'festive' spirit
where twitter and fb are spammed
with all kinds of YOG comments and pictures.
yeah, I know I said YOG wasn't much of anything.
But I think I have to admit,
I did actually wanted to be a part of it
like one way or another.

well its too late now so whatever.
haha.
thats just typical me.
I'd say something that implies me being
so totally nonchalant about something
but my heart says I wanted to be
part of that something.
like the Harry Potter movies.
hahahhahaha

lame i know.
but I kinda always wanted to be apart of
that movie series =D
and I keep telling my good friend I'm not interested
in Harry Potter and all. hahhaha.
haiz tom so pathetic.

well that YOG holz was burned
by FYP activites.
going back to Night Safari for
a number of times.
I've completely forgotten how many times
I've been to night safari now. bleahs.
And the Scare Actors Camp was quite fun too!
met new people, with really annoying personalities.
hahahaha kidding,
they are awesome people.
some very handsome looking guys!
some very pretty looking girls!

and had awesome laughs!
really have to admit though,
they are all make very very great scare actors
Am really thankful to have chosen such
good actors.


oh and the video!
thank god the stressful part of it is over.
coordinating the client, 8 scare actors, jehmie (boss),
the video team and makeup artists at
one time is nuts.
but is sooooooo worth it.
hmmmmm so thats how producers and directors feel.
so pressured and stressful.
and they manage like hundreds of people!

I guess comparing to event managers and
any other coordinating jobs,
mine is like nothing luhhhh!
so I shouldn't complain! =D

and thanks so much ELIZABETH
for being such a nice helpful girl.

you awesome.


its september now,
so its gonna start in a month.
and end in 2 months.

i just cant wait.


oh and PTP is playing for Antagonist A.D. this tuesday!
@Home Club!

so please be there is you're free yes!
We'll be playing alongside very very awesome bands
like Abolition A.D., StraightForward, Her Silent Wish And Ruins!

I think this is where I should end.
Hmmm... now to look for something else to do till morning.
or until its time to go jamming.

♥/LiterallyTom/4:17 AM